jessica amber mclean.

tonight was just the most wondeful night EVER. Haleigh, her mom, and i went to see the BACKSTREET BOYS!!! ahhh, we felt like we were 12 again!! it was the greatest concert ever. BETTER than N*sync, and Justin Timberlake..yeah, i said it.
AJ was just soooo freaking hott, like the greatest part of the show..grungy, tats, black nails…my kinda guy HAHA!

I’ve been so busy lately with work & school..it’s been crazy! I hope i get some more free time so i can visit KSU more!!! i miss all of my friends sooo much (jj, trish, hales, steff, emmie, jeffro) Hopefully i can make more trips to see them!!! it gets lonely living @ home..dont get me wrong, i love my parents 2 death. but you need your friends to keep you balanced!!

I cant wait for Labor Day, so i can come up to Kennesaw. JJ’s birthday is the 2nd so i’ll be able to stay a few days! I AM SOOOO EXCITED ABOUT IT. i miss kennesaw so much. I mean, i only went there for like 3 months and all..but those 3 months were just so much fun socially. Everyone i love goes there, and its so convenient to see everyone when i want to.

I have work @ Cheesecake in the morning so i’m gonna get some rest!

Have a blessed day. NIGHT

peace, love, & yoforia.

so i havent written in about a week. I’ve just been so busy and didn’t know what to write about..
whats new??? ummm..I GOT MY TRAGUS pierced..(its the pokie-outie thing in your ear..really thick cartilage). Good explanation, right? lol. Well, it basically hurt like a mo-fo. WORST PAIN OF MY LIFE. well, thats a lie, but it was pretty up there on the list.

I love my new job @ cheesecake. It’s the easiest job i’ve ever had..I basically just bring people to their seat and get paid for that..BUT the downside is i have to do bathroom checks all the time, and i see some gross things in there :/ yucky.

OHHH, so i think i’ve set a new record. This past week i’ve eaten YOFORIA 4 times this week..its crazy..but its soooo good i just cant help it. But i have one complaint, they dont have a bigger size than a LARGE. i need more.

I’ve been reading my new devotional for about a week now. For the first time EVER, i’ve spent time with my savior every night. I dont know what was wrong with me in the past but i never made time for it in my schedule. I’d always say i was too busy, tired, or just plain didnt feel like it. All excuses were wrong, because i should never make an excuse for not sitting down and having a quiet time with my God. I’m getting so much closer to the Lord, and loving it so much! He’s my rock, my heart, and my everything.

So everyone in town that i hang out with is LEAVING for school :[ yes, the majority live in kennesaw, but still..its about 50 minutes away and not so bad to drive to..but i'm always trying to find time to fit it into my schedule..hopefully i'll be able to make a lot of trips there so i can spend time with my best friends, boyfriend, and little brother :] It sucks sooooo much to say bye to JJ every week. Those 7 days seriously feel like an eternity has gone by since i’ve seen him last. I’ve got to get back into that habit of hardly seeing my boyfriend/best friend all the time…long distance, sweet. Phone relationship, basically. And of course, my trishaaa is leaving. She’s my best friend and its going to suck so bad with her not living in Cumming anymore..

I remember this time last year we were moving into our pretty little apartment together. Now, i live back at home, and her in a new place with new roommates. :[ sad day.

Anyways, i’m gonna go have quiet time with God and sleep. Then, another day @ work tomorrow.
AND MY LAST DAY with JJ before he leaves for school :[ BOOOO.

< PEACE, LOVE, & YOFORIA. (yes, i really am obsessed).

bittersweet.

this morning i met with Drew from BBCC about being a small group leader @ Xtreme. It went SO good and i cant wait to get a group of girls that i can make close relationships with..and lead them closer to God.

I FINALLY found a devotional that i LOVE..its called ‘Streams in the Desert’ by L.B. Cowman..i cant wait to start reading it every night

I was thinking so much about how awesome its going to be in the next 2 years being on my ownnn..it’ll definitely be hard money wise..but it will definitely be a relief. Not that i absolutely hate living @ home, because it has its perks..but i think that i’m just at that age now where i desire a place of my own! So many less arguments thats for sure..my parents and i butt heads every now and then and it just breaks my heart..i cant wait til that day where i live in my OWN home, pay ALL of my OWN bills, and just have a relationship with them..outside of those things!
I have to go to work right now but i hope everyone has a fabulous, blessed day <

busy bee.

yesterday we went to PF changs & coldstone to celebrate one of my best friends’ birthdays!! it was such a good time. Me, trish, haleigh, emily, jj, and bobbo…i love them all so very much & they all have a special place in my heart <3. Later, we went to JJs to play SCENE IT MOVIES & then watched Harold & Kumar..needless to say, the girls lost @ the game, once again..SOMEEE DAYYY we will beat the boys..some day.
Today i started my first day at Cheesecake. It was ok..nothing too difficult..just too many dang table numbers to memorize. Should be a good job for the time being! I am just so sad lately, because i cant stop thinking about everyone i love leaving to go to Kennesaw again! and i just KNOW that i’m not going to have any time at all to spend with them! I’ll be going to school full time & the days and weekend i’m not at school, i’ll be at work. So i HAVE to make it a priority to head over to ksaw & spend the night. I wish i didnt have to be so busy!!!
Midterm week starts Monday, should be fun right? no.
Well, i’m going to bed..gotta wake up early and get coffee with Drew..i’m HOPING to lead a small group @ Xtreme (BBCC)..< i think i’m ready to lead a group of girls..it should be awesome
loveee. sweet dreams all.

Zzzzz.

man, what a boringgg day this has been. I’ve done absolutely nothing but homework and watched tv/movies all day. i hate days like this because it makes me feel like i’ve accomplished nothing. I have school tomorrow which is more exciting than being lazy. Kinda looking forward to seeing ANDREA :) and possibly getting YOFORIA So i need a new devotional. Any good ones??? I’m having the hardest time finding one i like..so if you know of any that you’ve used before, lemme know PLEASEEE
Last night i went to the Miss Cobb pageant. Funny story…It never happened. We sat there for 3 hours waiting for the lights to come on. The storm there took out the power..mannn ohhh mannn was that interesting. But i didnt want to leave until i knew it wouldnt happen that night, because i really wanted to see Haleigh This week is going to be so busy i feel like…School tomorrow from 2-10 and then Tuesday i’m getting my haircut…who knows what i’ll do to it. Then i’m going to see Shannon, my friend from Ai who moved to N.C.. sad day. Then back to see Haleigh, Trish, Emily, JJ, Jeffro, and possibly Bobbo. It should be fun..Hales is spendin the night so i cant wait
Well, back to more marketing homework. It’s always fun.

PEACE.

update.

So yesterday i came SOOOO close to getting my first ticket. However, i dont know what happened?? I was going 20 over and for some reason, God was on my side that day!!! I got off with a warning. THANK GOODNESS!!! Also, i got a new job @ the Cheesecake Factory which i’m pretty excited about..After the internship didn’t turn out to be something positive in my life, i was really looking forward to having a normal job until i can find something that’s more in my major. Who knows when that day will come. Possibly never. But i’m content with how life is going right now..which i should be. I have a wonderful family, the most loving & supportive boyfriend a girl could ask for, & amazing friends that God has blessed me with.
Recently my dad has started a…uhhh….NEW ADVENTURE as i like to call it. Right now, we’re almost done with remodeling a house he bought. In less than a few weeks we’ll be opening THE MUSIC HOUSE which is going to be pretty saa-weeettt. Vintage bass’/guitars..all sorts of random things! Also, there is going to be a recording studio in the basement. Man has that been an adventure. JJ is going to be engineering there, and he stumbled upon a new sound board. That thing..is probably around 1000 pounds. Today, my entire family and a few other people had to help move the sucker into the basement..lets just say, i wasn’t much help. But my back still hurts, so i guess i must’ve been some sort of help. JJ and his projects..he likes to get me involved and make me feel like he couldn’t have done it without me. But we both know i’m not the biggest helper in the world. God bless his sweet little heart for trying to make me feel important though

Anyways, i’m going to sleep & then seeing JJ again in the morning..Going shopping for some more recording gear for the studio. Then, Trish and i are heading to Cobb County to see our best compete in Miss Cobb County Wish her luck, i’m sure she’ll do great!!

CIAO.

you got me here.

some things have happened recently that have made me think. God puts so many people into our lives. whether they’re here for a moment or a lifetime, they are all significant. Why God chooses to take wonderful people out of certain people’s lives is besides me. Relationships especially. Whether friendships or true love, they constantly come and go. I have gotten close to so many people, and before i know it, they’re out of my life doing their own thing. Whether is moving away or choosing a different lifestyle..So many friends have came into my life, and then vanished. Why is this? I believe each person is put into a section of our life to teach us a lesson..to teach us how to be a better person..to help us understand our Lord more. Each loss is a heartbreak of its own. Why do certain friends have to drift apart? Why do so many relationships fail and walk out of each others lives leaving them heartbroken? Simple: Life..isnt..fair. That’s all that it comes down to. We have so many heartaches in our lives that are all a part of God’s plan. Whether we like it or not..they all have a purpose. During the moments of heartache and confusion, nothing seems to make an ounce of sense. However, years and years later, certain things begin to. We begin to understand that we would do it all over again, just to get to that point of our life. Heartaches, confusion, stress, and all. It’s like the song HERE by Rascal Flatts, as corny as it sounds it true: ”and i wouldn’t change a thing. i’d walk right back through the rain. Back to every broken heart on the day that it was breaking. and i’d relive all the years and be thankful for the tears..i’ve cried with every stumble step that led to you and got me here’. Anyways, none of this has probably made and sense, but its just my heart spilling out with 434943975 thoughts per minute.
to all that have came into my life at some point in time, thank you.

half pomegranate, half chocolate please.

I had school all day today (boo). Andrea and i were completely lost in BOTH classes. Marketing was crazy boring..and Accounting was CONFUSING. BUT..the good news, we got YOFORIA so that made us happy. i mean, its yoforia for goodness sake! For any of you who have no clue what i’m talking about, its italian frozen yogurt (no, not icecream). It’s incredible. Half pomegranate, half dark chocolate (with chocolate chips, granola, and oreos of course) :) Well now that i just rambled on and on about yogurt…i’ll move on.

Class got out early tonight so i went to College/Summer Gathering @ BCC for the first time. The entire time we sang all of my favorite worship songs, and prayed!! No sermon. Just worship. It was incredible. It was definitely something that i needed right now!!! I saw these two girls just crying and holding each other throughout the time i was there. It was so moving how they just supported each other. It proves that just a simple hug does wonders..just knowing there’s someone in the world who is willing to hold you and make your troubles go away just in that moment.

I’m going to pick up my brother in the morning!! He’s getting back from a mission trip. He went to Brazil to lead worship with Browns Bridge Community Church! I’m so proud of my little brother I couldn’t ask for a better one!!! Pray that his flight gets in safe.

GOODNIGHT ALL

reunited.

Ok so…my best friend in the whole entire universe is coming home TONIGHT Trisha has been @ Saranac Village for YoungLife camp. I know she was growing closer and closer to God and making lifelong friendships with wonderful people!! She’s such a blessing to me and so many other people! I’ve missed her MORE THAN YOU CAN IMAGINE. Trisha’s been gone for a month..and it’s wayyy tooo longgg. She’s my other half. I mean, she should be since we’ve been best friends for TEN, thats right, TEN years. I hope her flight is safe and she gets home okay!!! I can’t wait to just hang out with her again and be our goofy selves..before i help her move into her new house in kennesaw ohh i wish we still lived together…there’s never a dull moment that’s for sure!

I LOVE YOU TRISHAA

faith.

Okayyy. So. What is it that i’m supposed to write here exactly? Apparently blogs are just an excuse for people to ramble on and on about their struggles, daily adventures, and so on. I’m probably going to sound like the biggest weirdo on the face of the earth half the time, but when have i ever cared what others thought about me? Well, let me introduce myself. My name is Jessica Amber Hardy. I graduated h.s. in 2006 and started what i like to call..an adventure. I didnt plan on attending college the fall semester, but my dad made me..So, being myself, i followed my best friend of 10 years, Patricia Jo Swart, to Reinhardt College. It was an unforgettable experience..but it wasnt the place for me. The following year, i transferred to Kennesaw State University. I thought it was the place for me. I mean, with my best friends Trisha & Haleigh, my brother, precious emily, and my boyfriend there too..you’d think the same! Long story short, i transferred for the THIRD time to the Art institute of atlanta. I left everyone i loved behind and went my own seperate way. FOR ONCE. It was the toughest thing i’ve ever done. But i felt that God was leading me in that direction. I had a passion to major in Fashion..and i wanted to choose a career in that field. No other career seemed right for me.

Well, now a year later..NO i’m not transferring again. But i question if i did the right thing. I constantly question my abilities and future. Am i going to be a success in the fashion industry? or am i going to be a nobody who is 30 and miserable with her career? I tried an internship at a modeling agency in ATL, and it was horrible to me. It made me fear what the future would hold. I’m having the hardest time having faith that it will all work out. Right now, i’m jobless but still in school! I’m trying to be patient and let God do the work. I trust that he will eventually give me the guidance to choose the right path in the future. Even though i lack confidence in this area, i know he won’t let me down.

It’s amazing how much things change in a year. Who knows what struggles will come my way in the future, but for right now..let’s concentrate on today.